So…fast forward to present day (12 years lager) and I ask myself ‘What HAVE we done (besides get married and grow a child)? We have this ultimate vision in our minds of a little piano bar – called Loud Smiles (of course). The ‘where’ took a few years to fine tune – Costa Rica. And similar to our good friends who live in Kauai now (rather than brrr Boston, MA where they hailed from) once we landed in this fantastic country we chose – it felt like home. That was 8 years ago.
What has irked me since then is that our ‘when’ keeps moving farther and farther away.
I also admit our‘plan on ‘how’ to get to Costa Rica has had numerous twists and turns. Challenges which have encouraged me to wallow in strife, frustration and yes, even tears.
While I admit i like ‘stuff’ I don’t NEED ‘stuff’. A simplistic life is all I desire. My only requirements: Walter, Gregory, our adopted daughter (from there – once we get there), the dog (of course) and it needs to be in a warmer climate with a laid back ‘island time’ feel. I envision this as a place and space where I can reconnect back to what is important – my family and my artistic side, spending hours creating – a place where people are not concerned with what you drive and how big a home you have – being who I was meant to be – to myself and my family.
WHAT have I done instead? My time has been spent working in a hectic corporate environment, then it has been spent creating alternate businesses to allow me to work from home, all the while remaining trapped with financial responsibilities and surrounded by the possessions of our material world.
I don’t honestly know.
Upon reflection it appears I was doing what I thought one needed to do to get where we wanted to go. We work hard. We save. We work some more. We hopefully save some more. And EVENTUALLY we get to go there. The same way most people go to school to get a degree to work for someone else to eventually work their way up the ladder, to retire so they can hopefully do the things they always wanted to do.
I was concentrating on the HOW.
While having a healthy nest egg in the bank before we leave for Costa Rica may be ‘optimum’… I’m now realizing – truly recognizing – what I’ve been doing to myself in order to get there. THIS is where my foot came down. I am a talented, smart, creative, personable person (hey, that felt GOOD!). I can do just about anything business wise and if there is something new I need to know in order to earn a living – I’m also a very quick learner.
The decision has been made. We are all in agreement. We have the where. We now have the when. It’s the HOW which is not known but also no longer a concern.
There are the 6 questions we are to ask ourselves: WHO? WHAT? WHERE? WHEN? WHY? and HOW? How has always been part of this group but was – like the song on Sesame Street “one of those things which is not like the other”: It did not start with a W.
We are to concentrate only on the Ws. It’s not our place to figure out the HOW. That one is spelt differently for a reason – with the W at the end rather than the beginning. So that’s where we will leave HOW – at the end – allowing it to take care of itself – to unfold AFTER everything else has been taken care of.
So – it seems similar to the BE DO HAVE. You must first BE. Then you DO. THEN and only THEN will you HAVE what you envisioned.
YEAH! Watch this space!