Am struggling today. Not sure whether that is an observation or an opinion. Either way it is not a nice space. While I continue to consider all the various aspects to assist how to proceed, I will share a bit of my struggle and then tomorrow…I may see a different perspective.
Every evening I sit at my computer reviewing my day – pondering whether I made a difference in someone’s life or someone else made a difference in mine. I do my best to observe the miracles of the day – the nuances which make today a unique experience – and release the need for opinions to impact how I view the day. I share my journey through this realignment – hoping that by doing so I may also inspire others in their thinking.
Up till now this has been mostly a journey of growth towards who I envision myself to be … who I am at my best. Today…not so much! When the image of mortality is standing in the doorway, leaning on the door jam and occasionally ringing the bell to get my attention, I find myself faltering in my progression.
I recognize myself as someone who likes to have a semblance of control in any given situation. I need not always be the lead but at minimum I prefer to know I have the ability to choose how I interact or contribute. A situation arose today where I have been asked to do something – not providing this action as a choice. Therefore it appears more like a duty or a requirement.
There is no right or wrong in this situation – as that would indeed be an opinion. There is only truth. I choose to allow my heart to ponder this overnight and will embrace my truth – whatever that may be – tomorrow.