I was invited and went to church today.
The only church I have frequented in the last decade or so has been Walter’s family church. Most of these services have been delivered in Ukrainian so while it’s church – it’s not something I have been able to absorb with any significant attention.
Today I was introduced to a group of caring, welcoming and warm people who openly acknowledged the newcomer in their midst. I witnessed a wide variety of ways to worship within the group – allowing me to appreciate their individuality – their ability to embrace their belief in a vocal and demonstrative way – with complete acceptance for and from everyone else. This was quite refreshing for me.
Most of the services I have gone to in my life have been regimented in their delivery and interaction. I must admit my experience is small and restricted to large church organizations. I realized today that while these past experiences had a large number of people worshiping in a group….I had always remained solitary. Today felt different – more encompassing.
I had the pleasure of speaking with the pastor’s wife before the service and the pastor afterwards. While their belief was palpable to me – both in the intensity of their words and energy – I remained true to myself without judgement – allowing the time I spent in their presence to be experienced without opinion.
I departed with what I felt to be a blessing of acceptance for who I am and well wishes for my upcoming journey. My friend gifted me with a bible – suggesting a specific section (John) where she believed I would most benefit from God’s teachings at this time.
I am grateful someone chose to include me. I am grateful I was able to witness and experience accepted today. I am grateful I am in a place in my life, in my connection with my source (God), that I was able to allow the experience to be what it was meant to be. What comes of this remains to be revealed. I am just grateful for the space.