On the way to the hot springs today, my friend’s husband asked how I was able to go – it being Friday – was I not working? I explained I had nothing in the pipe, business wise, so I was in a position to enjoy myself.
Earlier this week my main client asked me to do something which was not in line with how I act as a consultant. Being asked to work with incorrect or incomplete information, or leaving holes in the information I provide, is so totally not my style. I asked for further clarification, in as polite a manner as I could (email can be a tricky way to communicate), referencing a few current situations. When no reply came in after 3 business days, I called and left a message. I did not receive a response.
Today started with the realization the consulting portion of my life may be at the end of its cycle – its purpose for me. 5 years ago I left the corporate world, and a VP position with all its trappings, to pursue a happier and more fulfilled me. A year later I went back and worked on contract in the same field and have acted as a consultant for the last 3. While I am very knowledgeable in this field, and I enjoy what I do, it is not where my true passion lies. So…what am I still doing here?
When I put aside the numerous opinions and work my way down to the observation of the situation…I realize I do not want to be doing this anymore. Why am I?
I live with comfort zones. Even if they are challenging zones, they are where I feel most comfortable. However, by continuing to do what I do well, I do not allow myself the opportunity to explore what other talents and passions I have within me – those talents which I believe are there…just below the surface…itching to be freed.
Almost 4 years ago, after an entire lifetime of saying I could not paint I found out I had the ability to paint. What talents am I meant to uncover now? The possibilities are endless. BUT, and that’s a very big BUT, if I stay in my comfort zone, working with what I know…how am I going to be able to explore those possibilities?
Today I vow to step out of my comfort zone. I will resolve the situation with my client in a manner in keeping with my business ethics. Once I implement and release I am free to embrace whatever possibilities come my way. Look out world!
Rock on, Carolynn!!! Magic surrounds you, and greatness lies within you. I am giddy with anticipation of the discoveries ahead. Believe in yourself, sit with your thoughts, and live the life you deserve. Hugs!
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